Raging

(Below is a song, entitled Raging, that I have recently finished writing. I wrote it as an expression of my recent wrestling.)

(verse 1)

I am cursed with futility and frustration
Aching for beauty and perfection
But I always fall short
No matter my intention
I choose the wrong direction
And my glory turns to shame
I don't understand the things I do

(chorus)

And so I'm raging against this prison of flesh
Never content in my imperfect self
A yearning for righteousness burns in my breast
Insatiable hunger; unquenchable thirst

And I'm clinging to Your promise

"Blessed is your emptiness,

For the hungry shall be filled."

(verse 2)

I am tormented by endless temptation

My flesh and Spirit locked in sharp contention

Still I'm captive to this lust

At purity's insistence

I shore up my resistance

But even then I'm caught off guard

The strongest fall the hardest, so they say

(chorus)

And so I'm raging against this prison of flesh
Never content in my imperfect self
An ache for integrity burns in my breast
Complete inability; torturous desire

But I'm clinging to Your promise

"Blessed is your helplessness,

I am strong when you are weak."

(verse 3)

I tremble in the face of persecution

As they voice their disapproval and derision

And break this child's heart

You warned me, "Count the cost."

And so I count it all as loss

All I am for all of You

It is only in the losing I find life

(chorus)

And I'll be raging against this prison of flesh

Never content in my imperfect self

Pursuing perfection till You bring me Home

Fighting my hardest; surrendering not

And I'm clinging to Your promise

"Blessed is your brokenness,

In My arms you will find rest."